For 2014 I decided to channel my energy into fulfilling one of my life long dreams, to become a yoga teacher. And it is turning out to be one of the best decisions of my life.
When I went to the first weekend of trainings the instructor pointed out people typically introduce themselves by starting with their occupation. I am definitely one of those people. As long as I can remember, I have wanted a successful and fulfilling career.
I chased after this dream so much lately that my life became dominated by work. Not just any work; work that I found to be unfulfilling and tedious. I told myself that I shouldn’t worry, that it is just a phase, and on the bright side I am making lots of money. But I couldn’t stop the negative, angry thoughts from spinning in my mind, and after a couple weeks of this feeling I knew that something was wrong. This was not just a phase.
The first yama (guideline) of the Yoga Sutras (guidelines for living a happier, more enlightened life) is ahimsa (and no that is not a sneeze!) which is translated to mean “non-violence.” This refers not only to physical violence but also to the violence of words and thoughts. The Yoga Journal states the importance of ahimsa with this quote:
“It is often said that if one can perfect the practice of ahimsa, one need learn no other practice of yoga, for all the other practices are subsumed in it.”
After reading this in yoga teacher training, I started thinking about the true importance of ahimsa. I realized that over these last couple weeks my heart and mind were in discord, and I was trying to suppress the weariness of my heart with “violent” thoughts in my mind. I dug deeper to find the source of this violence.
As I was driving home from a very long day at work one evening I heard these lyrics from The Verve song Bittersweet Symphony,
“You are a slave to money then you die.”
Even though I had heard this song many time, in that moment I had an epiphany and realized that I was a slave to money and was very unhappy in the process! I want to be more than a slave to money and I want to be able to have ahimsa in my life and my thoughts.
I plan to chase this dream throughout my life. I look forward to doing both as The new Registered Dietitian at The Body Image Therapy Center, and hopefully soon as the new yoga instructor too! I have been welcomed with open arms to this team and have already enjoyed seeing multiple patients and leading IOP group. I feel so blessed to have the opportunity to keep ahimsa in my mind and soul here at TBITC!